Absent in Mind but not in Body.

My blogs are currently few and far between, my organisation and talent in completing tasks is absent and I'm getting more headaches than I am revelations or ideas. I generally feel like my brain is hemorrhaging whenever I try to do something more brain-testing than writing my own name. I resent winter and it's annual ability to make me feel like shit for four months. NB; i just had to check how to spell hemorrhaging for the first time EVER. Something is wrong with me asides me being love sick.

However asides dying, I'm relishing in my own happiness, I am in love and loved, contraire to many a belief (AKA spiteful and bitchy comment behind my back from people who THINK they know me even though they don't like me). A lot of people haven't changed, they're doing stupid things just to be cool and wallowing in bed everyday because that's all they've ever been good at. I'm laughing, I'm head-achey, but I'm laughing.

I've been knitting, getting tattooed, studying so I guess achievement is lurking between hours spent sleeping and wiping my nose. I just love looking around and being able to say 'I'm doing it and you're not'. I don't know whether this makes me a pompous arsehole or just deserving for all my efforts. I'll keep you posted d-claimers.

Time Lapse and Jet Lag

I haven't written in a while. Mostly because I am constantly consumed which things I am trying to complete or should be completing. I could write reems on what I have done in the last 3 weeks or so but frankly, the people I have kept in contact with are the only people who actually give a shit and secondly I can't be bothered to explain 21 days of activity to an online journal that probably isn't read anymore because i don't get so shitty about everything anymore.

Although unrealistic, i severely resent how nothing in life is simple. I have three people to call tomorrow over things that should never have happened. I'm eternally confused, isolating myself from 95% of people was probably the best decision i ever made. I didn't want to come back here and I especially didn't want to face college again. Instead of approaching the fact that I should be studying for exams and completing work I instead spent the whole day clock-watching and realising that 4 out of 14 people in my history class were wearing stripes today; including me.

I am desperate to be with you always, and I am so glad you know this.