This Is What Living Like This Does

My mum had the talk with me today, the long-awaited 'what are you doing with your life' discussion that only results in you finding yourself defending everything you've ever believed in, but consequently you too re-evaluate everything you've done with yourself for the past couple years. Even further consequently you kick yourself for every 'mistake' you've ever made. It really made me think about freedom; i elude it from every pore, yet the only person who confines me is myself.

I've done a lot of things i've regreted, i hate myself for some of the time i've wasted with people who flake out and reinvent themselves into the epitome of everything i never wanted to be. But at the the same time, i've always done everything i've ever wanted, and never failed anything i strived to achieve. It really is true that the only person who holds you back from succeeding is yourself. The desperate dole citizens of this country who moan about not having the money to do as they choose are clear evidence of this.

I'm getting retainers to wear at night today; alas whilst i've spent the afternoon reassessing my youth i will shortly be reliving it every night for the rest of my life. I haven't put anything that metallic in my mouth since braces at 13. It's pathetic that i'm excited. My mum also asked me if i had 'bollocks' hanging from my ears today, no Mum they're cherry-shaped earrings. But thankyou for further establishing how little you like the life i lead right now. Hilarious.

'I got it bad, i got it bad, i got it bad, i got it bad, i've got it bad.'