Burrrnnnnedddd.

Went to Malibu today, i underestimated the sheer intensity of how sensitive my skin is. After applying sunblock on the hour every hour i still got so burnt i can't move properly. It seems i underestimate a lot of things and a lot of people. I love the way of life here, although not quite true right now i'm comfortable in my own skin.
I'm so worried of what i will come to when i get home in three weeks though, so worried i wanna hide under clothes not only to hide the hideous red reign but to hide away forever. Its worrying how safe and happy i feel on my own.

I was going to go to the movies tonight but i'm in on my own surfing the net, which by the way is the only surfing i have done today regardless of cooking myself on Zuma beach from 10am-3pm. I've been here two days yet i already feel so out of touch with what i left behind.

Just so you know i know you're moving on. I'm being left behind too.
On a brighter note (oh the irony) i'm so excited for plans.