Enduring Love

I've read this book through three times now..
I've also managed to throw out my best jeans, spill toothpaste down my shirt and kill my ipod battery.

Joe's obsessions and failure to be the rationalist he claims to be more than anything makes me consider that when we're pushing something away, or losing something do we realise it? Do we register what we're doing or infact by subconcious want it that way?

We're born alone, we die alone and maybe that's God's way of saying look what happened to Adam and Eve and use the brain i gave you, shit screwed up with them and it will with you. If you believe in that.

As an atheist i'n not even sure i believe in fate, all i know is i am lucky for what i've got even if i throw it out like my jeans, spill it like toothpaste or let it die like an uncharged battery. I am so so lucky.

I have a full day and intend to run 4 miles later, i'll probably watch what comes out of my mouth from now on because i have a penchant for people wanting to sock me in it. Or maybe not.

'so you wanted a solution?
you just wanted to be missed.
call me a safe bet, i'm betting i'm not.
I'm glad that you can forgive,
only hoping as time goes, you can forget.'